This is probably the darkest song on the album and people may misinterpret the lyrics at first. Long story short, I outline a lot of my flaws in this song, and [try] to convey how shitty I feel for ever treating any human being any less than how they should be treated. I touch on how I feel that I don't deserve anything good, and it's all revolving around the fact that my overthinking is most likely my biggest flaw. I didn't think I deserved happiness because I couldn't even make myself happy. At the time of writing this, I didn't believe I was a good person, and to be honest I still don't think I am. In this song I am reflecting on how I used to be a good person a while ago and I am trying to be that version of myself again. There have been few songs of mine where I basically rip myself apart and I guess this is one of them. I am only human and I will always be trying to better myself.
lyrics
I'm alone.
I can't be loved by anyone.
Turn me stone.
Any hope has withered away.
Call me poison.
I'll probably agree.
I'm reflecting on the good person I used to be.
Where am I now?
Where have I gone? I look in the mirror and see someone I'm ashamed of.
I'm afraid.
I can't bear to look at myself most days.
I'm ashamed that the accumulation of 20 years has brought me here to become this.
Watch me deteriorate while I continue to hate myself and wonder why anyone sticks around. I'm colder than I was before and it wasn't until I opened my mind that I realized I'm not always going to be right.
Where am I now
The second EP from Northern Irish singer-songwriter Bea Stewart runs from gentle folk to pillowy pop ballads, all perfectly executed. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 15, 2024